Bare Cherry Trees.
I had to force myself to fall asleep at midnight last night. I layed awake for the first hour. With my eyes opening on occasional, adjusting to the lack of light, and then being able to make out objects in the pitch darkness that were previously consumed by nothingness. I plugged in my MD player and listened to some R&B in hopes of getting me back to sleep. One of the songs that I listened to that hit a cord with me was Usher's U Remind Me. This was one of the popular tracks when I first came to University back in 2001. I remember that night at the Ceilie getting to know a girl named Sarah Zandbergen. She unfortunately left University but we kept in touch for a little bit afterwards. I haven't heard from her since she moved in with a boyfriend. Oh well. I eventually got some sleep before waking up at 06:30 hours. I sat at my computer listening to P.Diddy's Let's Get It, my exam song. My mom called me on cue at 07:30 hours and I got ready for the bus for 07:50 hours. As soon as I sat down I got back to my notes studying for a little bit.
When I finally got to campus I went to see if the caf was open for some breakfast. It wasn't. I decided to skip out on breakfast cause it was already 08:10 and I needed to go over my notes some more. I walked into the Great Hall to find a table. For some reason, probably some special even all the tables were taken apart and layed out in a special way.
I sat down at one of the tables overlooking the river once again and the sunlight outside. I put all my papers on the table with the text book opened. I started to read and take notes for the chapters. Footsteps in the distance. I look up and I girl walks past me not taking notice to anything. Quiet once again. I went back to studying and a few minutes later my studying was distrubed again by some wandering girl. She went in and out of the caf doors looking for something. Finally taking leave at the other end. My brain was jolted by her scent. That's Satsuma. I reconize that smell anywhere. For a brief moment my mind reflected back to the past, in the summertime of 2003. Good memories. I shook it off and got back into focus on the chapters. Just then the sun moved and shone through the thin yellow stained glass windows and shone right on my exact position. It penetrated my lined paper that I was holding up showing the very inside of that peice of paper. I decided my studying was finished and I stood up and began to walk towards the AC. But then stopped. As I stood there in the Great Hall I took a moment and remained still. I looked around the room and bask in the quiet nothingness. Nobody will remember this moment but myself.
As I walked the path towards the AC for the last time the giant shadow of the BATA library devoured everything. I envisioned University growing up in Highschool as something monsterous. But when I walked on the cold concrete path, taking notice to the small details of the hard exterior of the buildings, the bare hard exterior of the cherry trees, the pine trees, and the ceramic green looking lamposts. I realized that all this time I thought that University is something that forms you, something that breaks you down so you are ready for the real world. In this moment I knew that the University did not break me. I am unbreakable.
I finished my exam relatively early and hopped on the bus for home. As soon as I got in, the first thing I did was flop right on my bed. I'm all done. Kinda. Now all I have to do is wait for summer school.
Peace.
When I finally got to campus I went to see if the caf was open for some breakfast. It wasn't. I decided to skip out on breakfast cause it was already 08:10 and I needed to go over my notes some more. I walked into the Great Hall to find a table. For some reason, probably some special even all the tables were taken apart and layed out in a special way.
I sat down at one of the tables overlooking the river once again and the sunlight outside. I put all my papers on the table with the text book opened. I started to read and take notes for the chapters. Footsteps in the distance. I look up and I girl walks past me not taking notice to anything. Quiet once again. I went back to studying and a few minutes later my studying was distrubed again by some wandering girl. She went in and out of the caf doors looking for something. Finally taking leave at the other end. My brain was jolted by her scent. That's Satsuma. I reconize that smell anywhere. For a brief moment my mind reflected back to the past, in the summertime of 2003. Good memories. I shook it off and got back into focus on the chapters. Just then the sun moved and shone through the thin yellow stained glass windows and shone right on my exact position. It penetrated my lined paper that I was holding up showing the very inside of that peice of paper. I decided my studying was finished and I stood up and began to walk towards the AC. But then stopped. As I stood there in the Great Hall I took a moment and remained still. I looked around the room and bask in the quiet nothingness. Nobody will remember this moment but myself.
As I walked the path towards the AC for the last time the giant shadow of the BATA library devoured everything. I envisioned University growing up in Highschool as something monsterous. But when I walked on the cold concrete path, taking notice to the small details of the hard exterior of the buildings, the bare hard exterior of the cherry trees, the pine trees, and the ceramic green looking lamposts. I realized that all this time I thought that University is something that forms you, something that breaks you down so you are ready for the real world. In this moment I knew that the University did not break me. I am unbreakable.
I finished my exam relatively early and hopped on the bus for home. As soon as I got in, the first thing I did was flop right on my bed. I'm all done. Kinda. Now all I have to do is wait for summer school.
Peace.
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